I am - – this close to losing it.
To run screaming from the house.
Honestly.
My sanity is still present enough to realise though, that should I give in, to that primal scream that is bobbing it’s head at the surface of my mind that I may never actually stop, or come back.
So I stay home.
Tend.
Mother.
Feed.
Clean.
Wash.
Cook.
Tend.
Mother.
Feed.
Clean.
Wash.
Cook.
Sleep.
Wake-up.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
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What about MY dreams damnit!?
What about MY goals!?
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.
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No one listens.
Or cares.
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.
.
.
At least, that is how it feels right now.
Ever the eternal optimist, I know that tomorrow will be better.
Of course, the problem with tomorrow, is that it’s always that.
.
.
.
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Tomorrow.
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#1 by Melody on December 12, 2009 - 6:34 pm
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Hang in there Ness. I know its really tough. We all know/feel your anguish/irritation and primal desire to flee.
xxx
#2 by Vicki on December 12, 2009 - 10:23 pm
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I’m listening. Like Mel says hang in there – it will get better.
#3 by Jayne on December 12, 2009 - 11:31 pm
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The crappy days are there to remind us fabulous women not to get big heads from our sheer wonderfulness
Hang in there, it’s a law (somewhere) that we’re allowed off our chain to run amok and create mayhem every other day
Jayne´s last blog ..Archbishop Mannix and the many, many Queens…..!
#4 by ness on December 13, 2009 - 8:08 am
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Thanks Jayne, you’re turning into the voice of reason over here. I’m okay now. One small meltdown yesterday, and I’ve bounced back this morning!
#5 by ness on December 13, 2009 - 8:08 am
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I’m okay now. Had my little meltdown on the blog yesterday, back to being the eternal optimist today
#6 by ness on December 13, 2009 - 8:09 am
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I’m okay now. You know, I’m really the most attentive blerrie Florence Nightingale, but yesterday I was just ‘up to here’ not with the mans requests etc, but just with *everything*. Anyway, like I said on fb, LOW POINT! LOW POINT!
#7 by Trish on December 13, 2009 - 12:16 pm
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Just saw this. I SO know what you’re talking about. My darling husband is a pretty lousy patient, too. My resentment at his suffering knows no bounds. He doesn’t get much sympathy. I’m a bit mean, really.
Glad you’re back on top now, though. And yes, love that movie and that scene